Monday, May 28, 2012

I wasn't expecting this...


I recently posted Tim Challies review of 1000 Grace Gifts and how my discernment has been stretched through recent conversations with dear friends about Ms. Voskamp's book.

I was humbled and am looking in with curiosity at Mr. Challies post today...


Ann Voskamp sent me an email the other day. She invited me to bring my family to the Voskamp farm for a meal—they live just a couple of hours from us—to put people to the pixels, so to speak. It was a kind invitation and well-received. I am hoping that my family and hers can coordinate our calendars and make it happen.
Voskamp’s invitation came just a day after I reviewed her book One Thousand Gifts. I have a long history of reviewing books at this site. I didn’t set out to be a book reviewer—it just kind of happened. I love to read and I love to analyze what I’ve read. From there it is just a short step to put those thoughts into pixels and to post them for the world to see. I’ve done this five or six hundred times over the years, reviewing the good, the bad and the ugly of Christian publishing.
While I wouldn’t classify One Thousand Gifts as one of those books that inhabits the full-out ugly side of Christian publishing, neither did I find that I was able to recommend it. In fact, in my review I went so far as to say that it could well prove to be dangerous to some readers. The thread of mysticism influenced by the likes of Nouwen and Manning and Willard, the language of sexuality and ecstasy—these are genuinely troubling and I stand by the concerns I raised. If Ann and I manage to get together, I hope we can discuss these things as I will gladly share my concerns in far more words than I could use in my review. From the little I know of her, I believe she will be eager to hear and engage.
It bears saying as well that I feel no moral quandary about reviewing her book or any other and even warning of potential weaknesses. Any author who releases a book acknowledges that it is entering into the public sphere and may receive both praise and criticism. This is an inevitable component of making writing available to the public and it is one that authors welcome; it is an honor that other people consider your ideas worth discussing.
Having said all of that, something happened inside me when I saw Ann’s name in my inbox, and that’s what has compelled me to write this little article. Seeing her name brought a sudden and surprising realization and with it a twinge of guilt and remorse. It has happened to me before, this strange feeling that comes when I suddenly realize that the name on the front of the book—“Ann Voskamp” in this case—is not some cleverly programmed, unfeeling robot that spits out blog posts and magazine articles and books, but a person. A real person. That should have been no great revelation, yet there have been too many times over the years that I have had to remind myself of this simple fact. I try to remind myself before posting a review; sometimes it only comes later.
As I read back over my review of One Thousand Gifts I could see that I had neglected to remind myself while writing it that Voskamp is a real person and, not only that, but a sister in Christ. As a writer myself, I ought to remember that words are meaningful and revealing and in some way a part of the person who writes them. Every word comes from somewhere deep inside. Every word of One Thousand Gifts is a part of Voskamp just like every word I write is a part of me. There are no idle words in her book, no words that aren’t felt and meant. Yet in my review I had treated her as if her words mean less than mine, as if I was free to criticize her in a way I would not want to be criticized.
Looking back at my review, and perhaps even more, the process of writing it, there are at least two things that concern me. The first is that I would have said certain things differently had I known that she and I might soon be sharing a meal together. Let me give an example. Of Voskamp’s literary style I wrote, “There is clearly a kind of appeal to it so that those who don’t hate it, love it.” I ask myself, Would I have said that to a friend, that her words are hate-able, as if that could not be hurtful? Would I have said that to someone I had planned to share a meal with a few weeks later? Probably not. Why, then, would I say it at all?
The second concern is that I fear that I might have said certain things differently had I considered her an “insider,” a fellow member of whatever little circle of the Christian world I inhabit. That one may concern me even more. When writing about Voskamp’s experience in Notre Dame I asked, “What does she not understand about the gospel that her ecstasies have to happen in a place dedicated to a false gospel of salvation by grace plus works rather than a gospel of salvation by grace alone through faith alone?” Would I have asked it that way if Ann was someone I might be on a panel with at the next conference I attend? Probably not. I may even have assumed different things about the way she understands the gospel. And maybe I would have put more effort into discussing some of the book’s strengths and showing how they balance the weaknesses. I hope not, but I can’t deny that somewhere in my mind lurks this insider and outsider kind of thinking which somehow encourages me to extend greater courtesy to one group than another.
I did poorly here and I can see that I need to grow in my ability to critique the ideas in a book even while being kind and loving to its author. There was reason for the shame I felt when I saw that name in my inbox. I had put effort into reading the book and understanding and critiquing it, but no real effort into showing love and respect for the author. I had assumed poor motives and in arrogance and thoughtlessness had squelched useful discussion of the book’s strengths and weaknesses.
There is value in engaging the ideas in any book, and especially a book about this Christian life, but the desire to uphold truth has no business coming into conflict with love for another person. Truth and love are to be held together as friends, not separated as if they are enemies. In my desire to say what was true, I failed to love. I ask Ann’s forgiveness for this.

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Sweet Days full of Thanks...

No Training Wheels!  
Mother's Day Flowers! 
I took the train to Chicago with one of my dear friends!  Shopping on Michigan Avenue!  Loved it! 

And the best part of the day... Cupcakes from Sprinkle's Cupcakes!!! 
The following week the kiddo's and I headed to KS .     Abby and Andrew loved roller skating at Sycamore Springs and I loved the memories! 
Always love this country view... 
Cousins enjoying each other!

And we are headed into another sweet weekend with the KS family visiting for Memorial Day!
Thankful, so very thankful! 

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

I've been expecting this...

I have posted about this book several times on my blog.  I enjoy Ms. Voskamp's writing style and appreciate the premise of her book.  However, in recent days and a discussion with some dear friends that I highly respect my need for discernment has grown. :)

I greatly appreciate this book review from Tim Challies.


One Thousand Gifts

One Thousand GiftsI guess I’m a little late to the party. Ann Voskamp’s One Thousand Gifts was released almost eighteen months ago and since then has been a consistent bestseller. If anecdotal evidence can be trusted, its appeal has been almost entirely to women. Not surprisingly, I’ve received many questions about the book and most of them have come from women—women who have been given the book or who have been told to read it. So at long last I had the book sent to my Kindle and I gave it a read.
The book’s appeal seems to come on at least two levels. In the first place, it features a uniquely poetic form of writing. Voskamp has a style all her own; it appeals to some and is exasperating to others. Just to give you a taste, here is an excerpt from the first page:
A glowing sun-orb fills an August sky the day this story begins, the day I am born, the day I begin to live.
And I fill my mother’s tearing ring of fire with my body emerging, virgin lungs searing with air of this earth and I enter the world like every person born enters the world: with clenched fists.
From the diameter of her fullness, I empty her out—and she bleeds. Vernix-creased and squalling, I am held to the light.
Voskamp likes to use language in unexpected ways, moving around the order of words, blurring the lines between prose and poetry so that a gift isn’t “tied with ribbon,” but is “ribbon bound.” Sentence fragments are acceptable, rules malleable. There is clearly a kind of appeal to it so that those who don’t hate it, love it.
The second level of the book’s appeal involves the topic so that what she writes about resounds with many of her readers.
Voskamp’s story begins with the twin themes of suffering and ingratitude. She recounts the heartbreaking story of the death of her sister and shows how this, along with other great sorrows and disappointments, drove gratitude far away.One Thousand Gifts is a biographical account of first seeing her need for gratitude and then learning to express it not just in spite of life’s trials, but even through them. She refers to this as eucharisteo, a Greek word for thanksgiving.
Voskamp comes to consider ingratitude the very heart of humanity’s fall into sin. “Non-eucharisteo, ingratitude, was the fall—humanity’s discontent with all that God freely gives. That is what has scraped me raw: ungratefulness.” The remedy, then, is to restore thanksgiving. “Then to find Eden, the abundance of Paradise, I’d need to forsake my non-eucharisteo, my bruised and bloodied ungrateful life, and grab hold to eucharisteo, a lifestyle of thanksgiving.” The way she does this, or the way she does this tangibly at least, is to attempt to order all that she has to be grateful for. She begins to scratch out a list of one thousand gifts. She challenges herself with this, to write down 1,000 gifts of God’s grace. 
What are these gifts? They are the ordinary and every day things like “morning shadows across old floors, jam piled high on the toast, cry of blue jay from high in the spruce” (those are numbers 1, 2 and 3 on the list). As she writes, she finds that she begins to think and speak the language of gratitude. Her life is transformed as she discovers how to be grateful. She goes so far as to make this very nearly sacramental, saying “If clinging to His goodness is the highest form of prayer, then seeing His goodness with a pen, with the shutter, with a word of thanks, these really are the most sacred acts conceivable.” As she learns gratitude in her own life, she calls on her readers to do the same, to begin that list of one thousand gifts. Perhaps they, too, will ascend to this new level of Christian experience that she has found.
Having now read this book, I want to point to a couple of some significant concerns.
The first pertains to the people who have influenced Voskamp in her journey toeucharisteo. Her theology is an eclectic combination of Protestantism and Catholic or Catholic-influenced mysticism. She either quotes or is influenced by authors like Henri Nouwen, Brennan Manning, Teresa of Avila, Brother Lawrence, Annie Dillard, and Dallas Willard. This brings to the book a deep-rooted mysticism that at times seems even to border on the view that the divine exists within and extends to all parts of nature (a teaching known as panentheism). At heart, mysticism promotes the view that God can be experienced, and perhaps even best experienced, outside of Scripture. This comes in direct contrast to what Scripture itself says, that Scripture is God’s final and sufficient revelation of himself.

Sexuality & Ecstasy

Based on the people who influence her, it should not be surprising that her book ends up leading toward a higher plane of holiness or Christian experience that borders on spiritual ecstasy. This ecstasy comes by way of an almost sexual experience with God.
By the book’s final chapter Voskamp has realized that she still hasn’t put it all together, that something is still missing, and so, in her words, “I fly to Paris and discover how to make love to God.” This closing chapter, “The Joy of Intimacy,” is her discovery of God through something akin to sexual intimacy. In a chapter laden with intimate imagery she falls in love with God again, but this time hears him urging to respond. She wants more of him. And then at last she experiences some kind of spiritual climax, some understanding of what it means to fully live, of what it means to be one with Christ, to experience the deepest kind of union. “God makes love with grace upon grace, every moment a making of His love for us. [C]ouldn’t I make love to God, making every moment love for Him? To know Him the way Adam knew Eve. Spirit skin to spirit skin?”
It is true, of course, that the Bible uses imagery of bride and groom to describe the relationship of Christ to his church, but it does not go as far as integrating the sexual component of marriage. Sometimes it is best to allow God to define the parameters of our metaphors rather than taking them to a much greater extent. Voskamp would have done well to limit herself here.
The sexuality of this chapter is not all that concerns me. I am also concerned with the kind of spiritual climax she experiences. Why should she have to travel to a Roman Catholic cathedral in a foreign land in order to truly experience the Lord? “My eyes follow the stone arches rising over us, granite hands clasped in prayer over souls. I think of all who have gone before, the hands of medieval peasants who chiseled the stone under which I now stand. I think of those long-ago believers who had a way of entering into the full life, of finding a passage into God, a historical model of intimacy with God. I lean back to see the spires.”
What does she not understand about the gospel that her ecstasies have to happen in a place dedicated to a false gospel of salvation by grace plus works rather than a gospel of salvation by grace alone through faith alone? Why should they happen in a place dedicated to Our Lady (which is what Notre Dame translates to)? She declares that in the cathedral she is on holy ground, but there is nothing more or less holy about this cathedral than any other place on earth. There must be something wrong not just with the destination but with the whole journey if it leads here, of all places.

Conclusion

Though One Thousand Gifts is not without some strengths, in its own subtle way I believe that it can and will prove dangerous, at least to some. Many will read it, embrace their need for gratitude, and genuinely be more grateful to God. This is well and good. There are many books that contain valuable takeaways even if they also contain significant weaknesses. It doesn’t make you a bad person or an immature Christian if you’ve read it and enjoyed it. But perhaps you’d do well to make sure you haven’t bought into it all the way.
I fear that some will see that Voskamp subtly promotes a higher order of holiness, a higher order of relationship with God, and be dissatisfied that they do not have this for themselves. They may grow discontent not with their ingratitude but with their inability to experience the kind of ecstasy and fervor Voskamp models. What she finds, what she models, is absent from the Bible.
One measure of a good book is that it more clearly displays the power of Scripture to show us our shortcomings and display the gospel’s power over them. In this sense One Thousand Gifts simply does not measure up. And for that reason, among others, I would not recommend it.

Monday, May 7, 2012

Summer Bible Study...

True Woman 101: Divine Design: An Eight-Week Study on Biblical Womanhood







I have a great opportunity to co-lead this study starting Tuesday, June 5th, 10:00 am at Bethany Baptist Church. It is a wonderful study on the Biblical role of Woman.  I'm super excited to dig in and study one of my favorite topics- the role of woman.   Childcare will be provided.
We would love to have you join us!  

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Homeschool Fun...

Homeschool has been full of wonderful exciting outings and events this spring.  We toured a firehouse.
Watched the life cyle of a butterfly- thanks for the motivation Miranda!
Butterfly!
 
And have completed lots of exciting science experiments! 
Homeschooling has been a great fit for our family and works well with our schedule, while it as not been without struggles, it has been a great joy for both Kevin and I to interact with our kiddo's on an educational level.  Its exciting to see their minds absorb information and take in a Biblical worldview.

We are an "evaluate each year" kind of homeschool family and have landed with giving it a try again for first grade and preschool. As we finish this year strong, I'm looking forward to summer break and then picking up next fall!

Friday, April 27, 2012

Using all the Wrong People...


Posted: 25 Apr 2012 12:01 PM PDT
“In Jesus’ simple command to ‘make disciples,’ he has invited every one of his followers to share the life of Christ with others in a sacrificial, intentional, global effort to multiply the gospel of Christ through others. He never intended to limit this invitation to the most effective communicators, the most brilliant organizers, or the most talented leaders and artists — all the allegedly right people that you and I are prone to exalt in the church. Instead, the Spirit of God has empowered every follower of Christ to accomplish the purpose of God for the glory of God in the world. This includes the so-called wrong people: those who are least effective, least brilliant, or least talented in the church.
Building the right church, then, is dependent on using all the wrong people.”
— David Platt
Radical Together
(Colorado Springs, Co.: Multnomah Books, 2011), 57

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

April 25th...

Every year on Apr. 25th I am confronted with my humanity and a sovereign God.

 Every year I am reminded that my twin didn't live and I did.  I am reminded of a mom that suffered great labor pains 2.5 months early and bore a bruised, lifeless, 2.5 lb baby with a hole in its heart that wasn't expected to live through the following night.  I am reminded of a father who was told that if his first daughter lived she would most likely be severely handicapped and blind. 

I am reminded of a God who "knit me together in my mother's womb."  A God who has great plans and a purpose for my life.  I am reminded of a God who works miracles. 

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

And Another Book...

 

"God's Priorities for today's Woman"...this book gets its own post for a couple of reasons.  One the author, Lisa Hughes, was involved at Seminary Wives, during our time at The Master's Seminary.  She is a Godly woman that I have been privileged to observe and know that she walks what she is writing. 

Secondly, its is an exposition of Titus 2:3-5 and it's excellent Bible study! 
"Older women likewise are to be reverent in their behavior, not malicious gossips nor enslaved to much wine, teaching what is good, so that they may encourage the young women to love their husbands, to love their children, to be sensible, pure, workers at home, kind, being subject to their own husbands, so that the word of God will not be dishonored."Titus 2:3-5 ESV

Thirdly, through God's word and studying Titus 2, along with Mrs. Hughes' words I am gaining new perspective and insights into my soul.  For quite some time, really as long as I can remember, I have been fumbling and fussing with discretion.  I'm a "let it all hang out kind of girl."...you know that kind that just says what pops into her mind. I value openness and honesty in relationships.  However, as I grow in my relationship with the Lord and with other people I am slowly learning that it's not always okay to "spill."   Proverbs speaks very clearly about this heart issue.  (Prov. 8:12, Prov. 12:16, Prov. 13:16, Prov. 14:8, Prov. 17:28, Prov. 18:15, Prov. 22:3)

While each chapter of this book has been poignant, its been the small phrase "to be sensible" that has grabbed my attention and summed up my heart refining.  Mrs. Hughes' explains the Greek work for sensible. Sophrone, it is one word in the Greek that has a board and wide scope when translated to English.  Various words that encapsulate "Sophrone" are discreet, self-controlled, sober, and prudent. 

"To be sensible means to have good sense or reason, while having self-control means to exercise restraint over one's own impulses or emotions.  To be discreet means to show good judgment in conduct and speech, and possess the ability to discern the proper way to respond.  Prudent is a synonym of discreet; it refers to being marked by wisdom and careful thought.  And sober means to be serious, restrained, and moderate." pg. 148

"Every area of our lives benefits when we respond with discretion and self-control.  Our relationships benefit when we respond sensibly and wisely, rather than relying on our feelings or responding rashly.  Our parenting changes when we parent with self-control...Self-control, careful thought, and wise living are to characterize our relationships." pg. 149

"The sensible woman learns to think--a lot!" pg. 151

"It takes time to learn the art of discretion--when to speak up, and when to be quiet.  Self-control is built into our hears and lives not by sheer grit-it-out willpower, but by relying upon the Lord to help us when we are tempted to give in to our lusts or emotions.  A sensible life is exemplified by a woman who seeks the Lord in prayer and through the Word of God, who leans upon Him throughout the day, and who desires above all else to have her responses be the kind that please the Lord." pg. 155